Sometimes I feel like I don't really know myself

Oh you know today we learnt how to slice the ball without YYY! YYY show me your new sex racket next week you better turn up or else Billy will capture Hz. And you know his math fail he charge us each $25 dollars only, okay plus maybe a little ingenuity from hz and I. More from hz cause she's good at taking advantage of Billy:) So YYY, next week I am going to slice you!!

Guowei read my law appeal letter and he said I was full of crap and showed nothing, absolutely nothing, but flowery language. I didn't think it was flowery at all, it was what I really felt know. Such a harsh man! So he edited it for me by cancelling my whole 'grandoise ideals' last paragraph, huh i earnestly thought it was quite good:( Anyway let's cross our fingers and hope we succeed, esp Jess and YYY I want all of you to be happy. Plus tingkun and sikai too although they irritatingly took my place in law. And if Dan gets into SMU Law, I pray everyday for her, I will buy her many many roasted marshmellows and we can roast them in school. School will be awesome with Diana and Danielle. My favourite Ds.

I have a new bitching partner at work she is called Hamiedah i like her a lot cause we bitch so much Derrick had to ask us to stop standing together. I tell you I hate Glenn, Jason and Derrick. I positively dislike them and hate Glenn. Glenn that bitch he thinks he's some big shot, nevermind about ordering me around, this whole incident just pisses me off like mad. You know there were 2 men who barged in and sat at the table for 7 people, I didn't know it was reserved so I just walked behind them. And so Darren politely asked them to move to another table, and they refused very vehemently I don't understand why they are so unreasonable anyway but that's beside the point. Glenn, that idiotic bitch stood in front of me and said 'Why did you not stop them if you know only 2 of them were going to sit at that 7 seater table?' In halting english mixed with Chinese. My god I retorted him with fury, I said that you don't practise what you preach at all because in the short 2 weeks I've been working here I see old staff leading 2 customers sometimes even 1 to the 7 seater table. If you are kicking up this huge fuss now when I allow it, I don't see how you can justify the countless times that happened. And he said 'Next time just don't do it' This made me so mad I didn't even try to hide my anger I told him that if he's not going to answer me, I am not going to respect him and understand where he is coming from, and accordingly, I am going to continue doing this. Unless you say you are sorry for accusing me, or say you are sorry for the countless times you yourself led 2 customers to the 7 seater table. And I don't see how if I tried to stop them from sitting there they will not because Darren asked them politely to move and they refused to bulge.

I hate the sight of him even, that idiotic bitch.
 

I feel a little anti social sometimes! At weird awkward moments I will be struck by how anti social I am. Not a very good feeling to have it makes you vulnerable

YYY and I spent the day without spending a cent. Aren't you proud of us! Even night at the museum 2 was free but it's not nice at all. It was boring except for a few rare moments of humour, coming from king kaputra mostly. Is it king kaputra? I forgot his name. I like owen wilson although he is so miniscule. YYY slept 2 times during the movie and I was so restless luckily we had 4 hotdogs and salty popcorn. The theatre was half filled every single one of you should have came. Darn how i feel quite bought over by NUS business too, talk about branding and career services and a dynamic student population and experienced teachers from all over the world. Too bad I am in accountancy they have been 'NUS business-ing' the whole day I had to ask my tour guide if accountancy students will be included in everything that they just mentioned. Plus YYY keeps demeaning my faculty

Until now I am still undecided, swimming in a super huge dilemma

And I have driving tomorrow:( I don't understand how people like driving i hate it and i hate going for driving lessons. The only time I skipped it cause I was too tired from work, i felt so liberated. So so liberated which is weird because driving is supposed to be fun and new but i hate it.

Wah seh sibei toot, blain sibei bo ho! need to change tao nao. Nicole, only you know:)

2 of my favourite waiters quit! Work is rather boring if Carlos quit i'll quit too. Luckily he can't auntie Karen says he signed contract for 2 years. he just got salary after a month, quite a tidy sum!!!!! I need a treat a treat a treat like preferably seafood aglio oglio and one whole jug of matcha kiss. He say can:) Love matcha kiss and the green teaness of it makes me go woah eh eh eh na na la la la. I cannot wait to become the cashier i love to hear the sound of coins clanking and the smell of money, plus the feeling of power and authority in your hands. Like when we play monopoly i'll create my own cashier system so i feel good and important. I tried wasabi milk shake today, wah qiang tio! tried o mochi too, sheena i like it damn nice! i keep bugging steven to make more more more. The 2 irritating asshole frustrating unreasonable demanding men came again today, they scolded darren for nothing that day till darren was so pek chek, wah my hokkien very sibei pro, when darren merely told them the table was reserved, and asked them kindly to move somewhere else. The reserved sign was on the table but they insisted on sitting there. Totally the epitome of asshole who the hell sees a reserved sign and ignores it, at the same time ignoring the 3 times i said so, and blatently also ignoring whatever the manager is trying to tell them, and scolds him back. Just yesterday they kept insisting the soups weren't hot and wanted new plates, like real i carry to them i know hot i hope they burnt their tongues.

There are sales going on everywhere:)

Who needs a roommate? I promise i'll be a good one pinky promise.

Teammy says there is no failure except in no longer trying. I love you 2, the sober one and the teammy:) We're in this together alright. Even if we go by different paths, I don't think we're going to give up. Because I still believe that there are some things that are visible only through faith right! Lots of passion to keep the fire burning

You think about it everything's not that bad. Everyone's looking for something that someone has got. Don't you think? To each his own. We have different dreams, aspirations and passions. I want something that you don't want and that is if you can attain that something you want but ain't getting now. I hope you get yours so maybe I can get mine. And she get hers so my friends can get theirs. I want everyone to be happy in the end, people I love. They deserve the best! This is really such a sad period, with one person who gets what he wants there will be ten others who feel like the world just dropped on their shoulders, and this feeling, this feeling of disappointment lingers. When you feel at your lowest, just a few words, just a few words are enough to trigger a torrent of tears. But you get better, by the min, by the day, because you begin to hope for the best and anticipate the worst
 

I don't know if I did well! Their faces were impassive after the interview but I thought it went okay I could fend their questions, made a joke out of Kungfu Panda and said "I think I threw myself into the deep end" and they laughed they were so nice about it. I thought it would have been a gruelling 15 mins where they grill you and squeeze you dry and at the end when you walk out you feel your confidence drained and ego all diminished, not like I have much to start with anyway, but they weren't like that. At least my interviewers weren't like that. And I spoke to a first year before the interview and she calmed me down so much plus after that we talked for pretty long too, about crazy things like selecting people for orientation camp. She's so nice:) The place is so rustic and pretty I feel so bowled over by it already. Please let me be the 1 out of the 4. I need it!

Then i met my friends, my two wonderful friends.. veh wonderful gers. Lam was in a serious dilemma, you think she wouldn't be because it's about buying a hat but she was. I tell you she was. For 2 hours she kept thinking about the hat and couldn't carry out a proper conversation. Pun was trying to convince herself that the pair of wedges was not worth the $$$, though she occassionally oscillated and started justifying the pair of wedges, I would think subconsciously since she's such a shoe-holic. And all while I was having my subway i love cold cut trio. Then they started bringing in opportunity cost and seriously debated about whether they should get the hat and the shoes, my wonderful alcoholic shopaholic friends:)

Now we're the bang bang family! you me and her!

YYY who is J:) You're done with the show your affinity with J ends here! Finals on the 23rd of april we have a date with hz my teammy your good good good friend. All the best little juniors I believe in all of you! laxing go in and kick their asses:) 

A lot of things. Yesteday was, alcoholic!!!!!!

Anyway i have been getting scolded at work by unreasonable customers who call you crazy behind your back when you turn and walk away. They obviously said it for you to hear, when they're 40 year old females behaving like how little tweens would backstab just because I made a mistake by asking you for your bill too early. But it's all for the experience i'm actually amused by them, don't understand why they have to flare up for nothing, hello add more wrinkles to your already not so impeccable face? far from it in fact. And this idiotic man scolded me when I tried to sell him mango volcano, i only said "sir how about trying our drink of the month, the mango volcano which leaves a spicy aftertaste" and he not happy. fine all you wonderful adults who have no control over your tempers. and this boy, ah kiat thats what they call him, he got corrected by some caucasians for not pronouncing "month" properly.

Tmrw is a very very crucial day i need to brace myself and rock it:) When you want something that badly it always causes you to sweat at your palms and pee in your pants. Aquariams of pyongyang i am counting on you tomorrow, make me proud yeah

Oh life's like this!!

I am going to search for employment later.

Sometimes it feels like people are going away far far away and you can't pull them back but nonetheless you try because you don't want everything to disappear like that. But things drag on and one day becomes dozens at one shot you don't even realise. It's a two way thing right? I can't be doing everything! Maybe pictures are all thats left. Much as I don't want things to turn out like that, sorry life's like that.